This morning was really special to me. I woke up with Gunnar in my face. He was whining and grunting at me as I lay in bed. Usually he will do this if he has to pee (and with the nasty weather he hasn’t wanted to go out much) but he brought me right into the baby’s room.
Avery had her head and chest behind her crib bumper, and was struggling with it. She was fine, and was playing with the wooden railings at her head, but Gunnar didn’t like it. So he came and got me! Our Wonder Dog TOLD me! Good boy!!!!!
I fixed the bumper and picked Avery up, all smiles and wet razzes. I changed her diaper, got a bottle and cuddled with her. She was in a great mood. We softly talked to each other and I got so many special smiles just for Mommy.
We got to sit together in the dark while she drank her bottle, and she looked at me, and we held hands, and I wrapped her in my robe with me to keep her warm. It was such a lovely moment this morning.
When I laid her back down and watched her sleep, I cursed the weather and this stupid job for making me have to go out in it. I wanted so badly to call in, and wished so hard that I could be a stay at home mom for a while.
So I’m just really sad and mad that I have to be here today, I guess.
But I’m SO THANKFUL to God for blessing me with such an amazing child and a heart capable of loving her so much that at times I honestly think it might burst.
I’m really looking forward to the weekend.
