My friend Amanda had her baby shower here at work today. She’s having a little boy and she’s due on February 18.
I’m like, more excited about this than I probably should be, like, overly, weirdly excited. It’s hysterical. Could it be because she’s my workplace BFF and we eat lunch together every day, and we can share baby stories and everything from good to bad together at lunch from now on? It’s so great.
Throughout her pregnancy, we’ve talked about it all, and it’s so nice to be able to give advice to a friend who feels your pain, literally.
While I’m both jealous and sad that once Little Man makes his arrival Amanda will be out on maternity leave for FIVE MONTHS, I’m so incredibly freaking out happy for her and can’t wait to visit her in the hospital and talk about all things baby when she comes back to work.
Anyway.
Her baby shower was today, and we had some snacks and sandwiches. Her husband David came in, so it was nice to see him, because it’s been awhile since the four of us have been able to get together.
She started opening all her gifts and everything was just so freaking adorable.
Puppies.
Turtles.
Little Fire trucks and all things Baby Boy.
She got infant gowns that were all beige and brown and blue, and little puppy slippers, and blue binkies, and soft white and blue blankets with frogs and blue rattles on them.
I guess I was just so enthralled with all the baby boy stuff. Everyone close to me before Amanda has had girls.
For whatever reason, I’ve ever only babysat girls.
I’ve ever only changed girl’s diapers.
I mean, I’ve got ZERO Baby Boy Part experience, and it just fascinates me, I guess.
What would I do with a baby boy?
Frogs and Snails and Puppy Dog Tails. Circumcision issues. And, baby boys grow up to be men. Could I raise a man? I don’t see why not, people do it every day.
I got this funny feeling in the pit of my stomach, like an itch or a yearn or something weird. I walked out of her office and back into mine actually feeling like I could try for another baby!
GASP.
Heeeeeeeelll no, Heath! WTF are you thinking?
Crazy impulsive thought, go away!
NOT possible. We’re so broke we can’t even pay attention – with one.
We’re sick constantly and stressed, there’s no time to get anything done…and I was hoping that by the time we would be ready to try for another one (maybe a boy) our friends would all be trying for their firsts, so we could all kind of do it together…
I Mean, I JUUUUUUST got back into my size 4s comfortably, (probably the chronic illnesses, but who’s counting…) and it’s a place I’d like to stay for a while. I like drinking a martini and enjoying an occasional social cigarette. I like knowing it’s not the end of the world if I miss a few vitamins.
I hate being pregnant. I hate having to limit my coffee intake and having to make sure I get the recommended amount of sleep every night.
I sat back down at my desk reiterating all these things. Remembering what it was like to get NO SLEEP at all while a two week old baby wakes up every 45 minutes to eat and poop. NO MORE BABIES FOR A WHILE FOR ME!
Still, the thought lingers…
I’d be lying to myself if I said otherwise. Thinking of Avery and all her antics, and finding an old picture of her in the hospital…MINUTES after she was born…my friend Julie (who works at Rex Hospital) took it on her phone and sent it to me.
Little Tiny Bundle of AWESOME.
Oddly enough, Mikey mentioned this topic this morning. We were talking about Avery and randomly he came out with, “I love her so much. But I definitely couldn’t handle another one right now.”
And just to be devils advocate, I said, “Well, me neither, but when, would you think?”
(We have this conversation frequently, and depending on how the day went, the answers change just as often.)
Turning around, he replied, “I think we’ll be ready when Avery is able to take care of herself.”
Laughing, I retorted, “Honey that could be 18 years! Or MORE!”
So, it’s an interesting feeling I’m feeling anyway. I wanted to document the first stirrings to you, Dear Blog.
The mommy itch, the mommy bug. SIGH.
And you better believe I’m swatting at it just as HARD as I can.


















